~jamaicanmama

A little hello to everyone! I've gotten into the habit of not signing in here for a year or more. Been trying to catch up with people's submissions and the like, let me know what you're working on.

A few things from this camp:

It's good to be back in Canada.

My job is awesome if not atypical.

Can't believe I've been a member here since I was 16. Also can't believe how differently I think now having read back over the updates I wrote at that time. That's one good reason to keep a journal, at least, to see how much you've grown.

New writing coming soon.

I've been trying to get back into writing some more now that classes are done for spring. I feel like I have a lot to say but the trouble is always narrowing that down into something precise on paper. My rule of thumb is always begin your work on paper, it's more organic that way. Computers have, in some respect, ruined the old fashioned art of paper and pencil. Of course, I usually turn all those works into weblinks so perhaps I'm a bit of a hypocrite. Your judgement.

I'm also going to start up a manuscript of some sort in the near future, though my direction is a little sketchy with it.

My mind is cluttered with unnecessary stress as of late and it's made me rather anti-social. I've been going back and reading parts of Into The Wild since I read the entirety of it earlier this year and the personality of Chris is strikingly familiar. Although not completely. The ideology of burning everything and starting over, doing better, is a good one, but I'm not sure I could do it. I don't know how many of us could. That's a question better left unanswered in most cases. No one knows whether Chris ever found his answer. I don't know if I'll ever find mine. So, safe to say, I shouldn't waste my energy on the small worries. But we're all a little neurotic when it comes down to it, aren't we? We're all too free to go insane. And it's those little things that tip us. Frightening, isn't it.

Wow, it's been for EVER since I've even checked back at this page or updated a journal among other things. Tons to say and write about but literally not enough space to even begin.

Will update shortly with some new stuff if anyone is still around to read lol

I can't believe the last time I wrote in here was August? Where have the months gone? It feels like just yesterday I was stepping onto campus, worried about finding my classes and arriving half hours early to all my classes anyway. And now I'm becoming a lazy college student. YAY ME.

I've actually written a lot of things in the past week, more than I have in the past year, because I've been through some things that I can write about with more clarity now that I've had a chance to think it all over. I guess it would only make sense if you knew what happened, but I don't feel like typing everything out. It's nothing major, just a lot of details that are irrelevant to where I'm at right now in my life. I actually have a few online journals, so this one has been kind of neglected even though it was my baby. The first one. Ah well, not like many people read this anyway to care.

I would say I want to try and be more active around here to comment but to be honest I don't know if I will be. I still like searching through the galleries when I have time. Still so much talent, that never changes. I used to try and be a comment whore, and now I'm just...a whore? Hah, just kidding.

My sister is getting married next August. Did I already mention this? I gush because I love her and I'm so happy she found such a great person. He deserves her. She's a powerful woman. Sometimes I feel like I'll be the one out of the three of us half siblings who never finds that one person. I almost dread it. Anyone would probably tell me I'm out of my mind, but it's a fear. I'm at that stage where, though I'm 18, I'm tired of just dating around. In no way am I saying I'm ready to be married, but the desire for committment is there. I'm tired of flings or casual hanging outs - I've never actually been on a formal date. Is that weird? It doesn't really bother me, just haven't found that kind of old fashioned soul who thinks of things like that. Most of my guy friends even, just think of a date as fast food or a movie.

And I'm rambling. I go from Dana getting married to my own personal comments. Eh. Here's another one: I kind like this kid in my Film class, Clayton. We actually only started talking on Wednesday during our break before 'movietime' because he finally sat beside me, and he seems like such a gentlemen. When I introduced myself he shook my hand and everything. So cute He's got such a great sense of humor and nice eyes. I hope he doesn't think I'm staring but his eyes are incredible. And he makes me kind of nervous. Guys don't usually have that effect on me, but maybe I'll work up the courage to ask for his email or phone number next time. He's also a junior...figures right? I always go for the older guy. I guess we'll just see what happens. I leave everything to Fate these days.

That's it. I have a few big projects coming up and it's getting closer to Thanksgiving. And then it will be Christmas. I'm looking forward to a brand new year

I can't believe the last time I wrote in here was August? Where have the months gone? It feels like just yesterday I was stepping onto campus, worried about finding my classes and arriving half hours early to all my classes anyway. And now I'm becoming a lazy college student. YAY ME.

I've actually written a lot of things in the past week, more than I have in the past year, because I've been through some things that I can write about with more clarity now that I've had a chance to think it all over. I guess it would only make sense if you knew what happened, but I don't feel like typing everything out. It's nothing major, just a lot of details that are irrelevant to where I'm at right now in my life. I actually have a few online journals, so this one has been kind of neglected even though it was my baby. The first one. Ah well, not like many people read this anyway to care.

I would say I want to try and be more active around here to comment but to be honest I don't know if I will be. I still like searching through the galleries when I have time. Still so much talent, that never changes. I used to try and be a comment whore, and now I'm just...a whore? Hah, just kidding.

My sister is getting married next August. Did I already mention this? I gush because I love her and I'm so happy she found such a great person. He deserves her. She's a powerful woman. Sometimes I feel like I'll be the one out of the three of us half siblings who never finds that one person. I almost dread it. Anyone would probably tell me I'm out of my mind, but it's a fear. I'm at that stage where, though I'm 18, I'm tired of just dating around. In no way am I saying I'm ready to be married, but the desire for committment is there. I'm tired of flings or casual hanging outs - I've never actually been on a formal date. Is that weird? It doesn't really bother me, just haven't found that kind of old fashioned soul who thinks of things like that. Most of my guy friends even, just think of a date as fast food or a movie.

And I'm rambling. I go from Dana getting married to my own personal comments. Eh. Here's another one: I kind like this kid in my Film class, Clayton. We actually only started talking on Wednesday during our break before 'movietime' because he finally sat beside me, and he seems like such a gentlemen. When I introduced myself he shook my hand and everything. So cute He's got such a great sense of humor and nice eyes. I hope he doesn't think I'm staring but his eyes are incredible. And he makes me kind of nervous. Guys don't usually have that effect on me, but maybe I'll work up the courage to ask for his email or phone number next time. He's also a junior...figures right? I always go for the older guy. I guess we'll just see what happens. I leave everything to Fate these days.

That's it. I have a few big projects coming up and it's getting closer to Thanksgiving. And then it will be Christmas. I'm looking forward to a brand new year